People are always
baffled by the fact that my dizi (Chinese flute) teacher doesn't speak English
and that I don't speak Chinese. The question usually begs itself, "How do you
two communicate if you can't speak the same language?" I reply with a grin,
"Simple. We communicate through music." Though he cannot put his thoughts in
words, he shows me through his playing; with a few grunts and gesticulations, I
am able to grasp the feeling and the nuances. Some people have said math is the
universal language, yet somehow it still remains utterly incomprehensible to
most people. Inevitably, in math, someone has to explain what all the symbols
mean. Music, however, requires no knowledge of random scribbles, no
memorization of vocabulary, no explanation, no translation. It is the one true
universal language, and it allowed me to overcome the barriers separating me
from my culture.
In seventh grade, my mother decided to enroll me in a Chinese orchestra, and
before the first rehearsal had even started, I already knew I hated it. I
figured it would be just a huge waste of time like all those years I spent in
Chinese school. Five years and I didn't learn a thing. My mother would have to
sit next to me and explain what the teacher was saying. As a half-Chinese
half-Indian, I was different from the other kids, as I was kindly reminded by
one of the parents. "This is Aaron. He's Indian," she said, as if my Indian
genes had erased all traces of Chinese. My mixed blood had left me without a
strong sense of belonging, and I, in turn, became distinctly American. Though
born Chinese and Indian, I had become neither, and the thought of playing in a
Chinese orchestra made me feel terribly out of place.
For my mother's sake, I continued with the orchestra. Initially, my mom had to
stay by my side to translate, as the conductor had assumed Chinese people could
understand Chinese. However, as time went on, I found myself needing her less
and less. Eventually, I told her that she no longer needed to stay during
rehearsal, as I was perfectly fine by myself. There was something different
about the orchestra from Chinese school; it was the music. With the orchestra,
it didn't matter that I was only half-Chinese or that I couldn't understand
what people were saying because the music was universal. I could understand the
flowing movements mimicking the soft, simple melodies. I could feel what it was
like to be in China, among the red azaleas blooming over the mountains on a
spring morning. I could feel the beauty and the tenderness, and that's all that
mattered.
Now, music has become the one place where everything makes sense. When I am
encumbered beneath the stress of homework and tests, when my parents are
yelling at me for watching too much TV and everything is in chaos, I know that
I can turn to music, and there I will find meaning amidst the jumbled pieces.
With music, the meaning is not betrayed by words or symbols that dictate what
it means or what it is supposed to mean. Instead, the music simply is, and the
meaning comes in whatever way it speaks to me. I can make sense of it all, and
I can be at peace. I hope to pass on this same sense of peace and security, and
to bridge the language gaps that keep people apart - the same gaps that had
kept me apart from my culture. Perhaps we can't all speak the same tongue, but through
music, we can all speak the same language.
In my own way I have begun to fulfill this hope. In September of 2008 I held a
solo concert in which I performed on nine instruments, including seven
different Chinese wind instruments, something which I had never seen done
before and yet somehow was attempting. I was excited to share my music, but in
the time leading up to the concert I was so worried that none of the audience
would find the concert enjoyable or interesting. Out of the approximately 400
audience members, more than half were non-Chinese. My dad had invited many of
his friends, and they were much more used to the upbeat dancing rhythms of
Indian music. How would they be able to appreciate the melodies of Chinese
songs? I was forgetting that music transcended racial boundaries.
After the concert ended, I feared mediocre responses but was overwhelmed when
so many people from all different backgrounds came up to tell me how much they
enjoyed it. They told me how each song had spoken to them personally and from
it they had learned so much about Chinese music. They themselves now wanted to
find out even more about Chinese culture. To be able to speak and connect to
such a diverse set of listeners gave me a great sense of fulfillment.
Without a language to anchor me, I had floated away from my ethnic roots, but
music brought me back to my heritage in a way no fluency with Chinese or any
other language could have done. Now, I can even connect to people of all
cultures in a language unconfined to words, a language without prescribed
limitations and thus all the more powerful. Barriers removed and with a renewed
sense of appreciation, I am eager to learn about my Chinese as well as Indian
culture. Once neither, I now know that I am both.
不要求所有學生成為音樂家,而希望把他們培養成具有高尚品格,具備綜合才能的人。
Nurture Noble Character. Cultivate Abilities to Succeed.